I feel the need to rant in this blog again. A blog which i have not touched for millions of years.

Parents always say, studies are very important and there is a need to complete our studies to be a useful person. I'm pretty sure many kids are raised by such beliefs and we all go through the same process.

Well for me , i grew up in a life filled with fear, anger and sadness. My parents were typical traditional and stubborn parents. This show their authority by shouting at us, screaming at us, and caning us. Well, not us but rather me.And if you know me well, i will always rebut. I never once liked my family and always yearn to move out simply because there wasnt any love or care for me.

Since i was young, i was always treated like a kid with no parents. I started working for my own pocket money and tried my best in everything. But yet, i was always tied down in the hands of my parents. How? because i was never able to get out in fear things may happen everytime. This fear i Grew up in made me sick and tired of my life everytime.

I asked myself, what is the point of working so hard in the society? Taking up several jobs just so that i could be able to live a better life. But then again, with work not in my hands, i'm left with completely nothing.

Then now comes university. Not being able to score well, landed me into a Private University. People may say "Its okay, its still a university" but then again, who knew the fees would amount to $20K for 1.5 years? My parents are unable to provide me with studies so they say " Put your studies away, its useless anyways" So i take the turn and think, let me push for my own business opportunity then. BUt i was tied down again. Whats the problem now i ask. the problem is that my parents say i'm lousy, inexperience and nobody want to work with me. I dont know how to value the market.

Well, its true. People say you should try to explore and work. But whenever business approach, humans then to con you. they always wants the cheapest (well who wouldn't) and when they see that you are just a young girl, they would try to trick you.

I got many of this. And im sick and tied of all this. With your parents supporting outsiders and not you. With your family not caring about you. One day, i would just decide to let go because this world has completely no meaning. Whats the point with no studies, no family and nothing.

The only thing i received from this world: Fear, Tears, Beatings and Helplessness in this world.