I feel the need to rant in this blog again. A blog which i have not touched for millions of years.

Parents always say, studies are very important and there is a need to complete our studies to be a useful person. I'm pretty sure many kids are raised by such beliefs and we all go through the same process.

Well for me , i grew up in a life filled with fear, anger and sadness. My parents were typical traditional and stubborn parents. This show their authority by shouting at us, screaming at us, and caning us. Well, not us but rather me.And if you know me well, i will always rebut. I never once liked my family and always yearn to move out simply because there wasnt any love or care for me.

Since i was young, i was always treated like a kid with no parents. I started working for my own pocket money and tried my best in everything. But yet, i was always tied down in the hands of my parents. How? because i was never able to get out in fear things may happen everytime. This fear i Grew up in made me sick and tired of my life everytime.

I asked myself, what is the point of working so hard in the society? Taking up several jobs just so that i could be able to live a better life. But then again, with work not in my hands, i'm left with completely nothing.

Then now comes university. Not being able to score well, landed me into a Private University. People may say "Its okay, its still a university" but then again, who knew the fees would amount to $20K for 1.5 years? My parents are unable to provide me with studies so they say " Put your studies away, its useless anyways" So i take the turn and think, let me push for my own business opportunity then. BUt i was tied down again. Whats the problem now i ask. the problem is that my parents say i'm lousy, inexperience and nobody want to work with me. I dont know how to value the market.

Well, its true. People say you should try to explore and work. But whenever business approach, humans then to con you. they always wants the cheapest (well who wouldn't) and when they see that you are just a young girl, they would try to trick you.

I got many of this. And im sick and tied of all this. With your parents supporting outsiders and not you. With your family not caring about you. One day, i would just decide to let go because this world has completely no meaning. Whats the point with no studies, no family and nothing.

The only thing i received from this world: Fear, Tears, Beatings and Helplessness in this world.

Are everything just memories...

I guess everyone comes and go in life but they will always stop by in your life and create those really beautiful memories with you. Some only makes a brief stop in you life while others, they will always stay by you. Best friends doesn't means meeting everyday but are the ones who you don't meet for a long time but are still as close as ever....
So why am i making such a mushy stuff? Because i found the ones who i believe that would go a long long way with me in my life. Maybe because i am more mature now?  hahaha! Okay obviously my friends will never agree that i became more mature but i really found the peeps i know i will stick with for a really long time in life. Honestly, i am the person who loves company and those really good ones where your friends make you laugh even for the smallest things... so im really afraid that some day, everyone would leave me as the journey continues... I am really contented with the company i have now. Guides, boyfriend, friend and my brother.... but will they leave me as the time goes by? Im scared... Im afraid because all of them created really good times and sometimes, i miss those really good time when all of them stayed by me, made me giggle...

These few months, many things have changed in my life. But that's life as many says. People change, situations change.... everything isn't a fairy-tale. Yes i know but i just want to stay in my fairy-tale... is that not possible anymore? I may be selfish but i want those times to be really back to normal. When CCA days are filled with laughter with all my girls ( yes it still occurs but its just different now) When everyone are always cheerful and funny. When those really sweet and funny moment lasted so long you feel just so blessed to be surrounded with really good people.... Will these be the same again? Or will they turn into just plain memories that are the only thing left for me to look back on.... 

Im not saying these because everything has changed but i'm afraid that everything will change one day and i will be left alone with only memories to count on... Im pretty sure the guy of my life would stay but will those times where everything seems simple stay too? Will friends stay too? Will every moment i have now stay the same as forever? I really hope it would because all of these people mean a lot in my life and i wouldnt be who i am today because it was them that stayed by me when i was upset and when i am at the lowest point in life. My girls would always be there to cheer my on and tell me to do the best i can in life. Everyone here are the drive in my life that keep me going.....

Happiness is when you are with your loved ones :>

BACK TO BLOGGING AGAIN! SOOOOO.... I haven been blogging in awhile and this time will just be a short blogging about the people who loves and dotes me dearly.
If you guys haven known, I'm in the 1st sem in my 2nd year of POLYYYYY~ This means new friends and new clique!

So... these are those peeps! KAIXINGGUO( HAPPY FRUITS) They are really the ones who makes me feel that poly life would be so much easier because they will always be there for me and make stupid jokes (PS: Im younger than them hence... youngest= easiest to bully) But more love from them also HEHEHE! We got super close only in this semester but we are super determined to maintain this friendship and even planning where to take Graduation pictures... (Guys graduation is a long way to go okay? chillax) Hahaaha! Times with them is really awesome! They bring me to places i wont go because im lazy like going Kbox and Prawning and the advantage of being young: THEY CAN DRIVE ME INSTEAD HAHAHAAHA! Im determined to get my license though :P

SUNDOWN MARATHON 2015:
If you all didnt know, i took up the challenge to run a 10KM run... yes i feel stupid for signing up when i cant even run 2.4km! BUTTTTT~ I did it within the 2 hours and got my finisher medal :P To me, time isnt the most important. At least i tried my very best and i conquered this 10KM with the love of my life :) Though, i walked most of the route i felt the sense of achievement especially when he decided to accompany me the entire way because he knew i wasnt in a good condition!
Not forgetting, this marathon was to celebrate his 18th birthday <3
MY BABY BOY IS FINALLY LEGALLLL!! No longer a baby but hehehehe~
I cant express my love enough to you but im very glad to have you with me and celebrating so many birthdays with you hehehehe~

Not to mention, was very glad we managed to catch up with loads of friends in the hotel and during the run with the 1.9.97 peeps :D hehehehe! Hope to catch up with you guys more okay! All the memories from secondary schoool is starting to come into my head ! much misses :(

We completed SUNDOWN-10km :D

On the side note: MARINA MANDARIN is really a good hotel to have a staycationnnn! The price was reasonable with the complimentary breakfast and also, they gave us a complimentary cake to celebrate piggy's birthday <3 much thoughts into it <3

Ohhhh~ also the clique got him a helium balloonnnnnn! (IMA FAN OF BALLOONS SO I VOLUNTEERED TO CARRY IT FOR HIM :D) 

all the people was literally judging me but i dont bother :P heehehehe and i got a photo with NILA (Singapore's Mascot for SEA GAMES 2015)

Well guys, before i end off, I want to thank this special person in my life ( My awesome brother). I guess he has been the most caring friend in my life and he never fails to treat me like a real sister. Always caring for me, being afraid for my health and protecting me whenever I'm in shits. Thank you kor for encouraging me and motivating me so much whenever i feel super down due to school shits or guides stuff.... You re the best brother <3

NAHHHH~ Photo to show u are the best :P

HAHAHA here is another one for always accompanying me when im alone :P

Last but not least, I wanna thank my bae for being mine and for booking the hotel for us to rest and also to celebrat your birthday. I hoped you liked the presents i got for you and thankyou so much for you unconditional love towards me :> always trying to sweet talk me but loving me so much more thn ever <3 AINIDUODUO :D

Okay! Thats all your this blog post! Till the next one :P WEHEHHEEHE~

STAYCATION 2015

HEYYYYYY~ TIME FOR A SHORT BLOG POST!
On 27 Feb 2015, me and my pig finally had our long anticipated first staycation at Coasta Sands Resort @ Downtown East :) It was the best especially when it was my first chalet hehehe! Though it was only a one night stay, im blessed and happy!
Got my nEbo Card and my Wet Pass! WOOHOOOO~
Sadly... I couldn't fall asleep because:
1. No idea why
2. Chalet isnt meant for sleeping right? :p ( But the pig says no)
3. Im sensitive to noise and since everyone outside is having a crazy time..... no sleep for me :<
HAHAHA! Im so glad to have bae because he tried his best to stay awake for me though he eventually fell asleep HAHAHA! But I had a great time~
WILDWILDWET was..... Disappointing because there isnt much ride but.... it is a good place to relaxxxx and since there isnt much people..... NO QUEUES :D We went Suntanning tooooooooo~ BUTTTTT.... I got Sunburn and i have no idea why :< Off all places it landed on my face and my upper thighs mannnn! And what is worst, it is my first time having sunburn and it is hurting terribly man -.-
I really miss that one night stay and i cant wait for the many other stays to come ;)
FOR NOW~~~~ SIT BACK AND RELAX TO WATCH A SHORT CLIP THAT SUMS OUR STAY :p

IDK WHY THE QUALITY IS AWFUL HERE BUT I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT 

Once again, Thankyou Bae for setting this chalet up and letting me enjoy this Staycation! I cant wait to have more Staycations with you and also to have for future overseas trip when we are older ;)

~TILL THE NEXT POST FOLKS~

Thank you for making my life so bright :)

Hey guys! another update here.... This is probably one of the many post im gonna love because its about the people whom i love and care about and they are the ones who never fails to make my life so much brighter and colourful with their impact in a way or another :)

So firstly, and the most obvious one.. My Guy. Thank you for being with my for the past 21 months going 22... We have come a long way and the recent path hasnt been easy with all the quarrels and stuff but i'm sure we will stay strong and be together forever like sticky tapes and super glue sticking together ^^ hhehehheehe! You are truly the best guy in the world. I bet no other guy can be like you because you are the only one willing to wait for me even if its 3-4 hours long and coming all the way to school to fetch me even when it is very very late and you are really tired from school :> SARANGEHAEYOOOOOO! I guess in many eyes they would be " he so free ah fetch you" well he isnt but he tries because of our little promise to each other before we started school>< hehee but i love this promise that keeps us together :P

Next up, Girl Guides... If you are someone who knows me well, you would have known that im like glued to guides because it is the place where helped me grow and nurture to who i am today. Guides is like a home to me and i will always make time to meet the girls because they never fail to put a smile on my face. They are like a family to me now :P because each of them treat me so greatly and we have a common bond with each other :)

  Girl Guides is truly the place i am glad to be in and a CCA that i will never regret joining because of the wonderful people and teachers i have met along the way to help me up when i am down and to teach me many things that i wouldnt have learnt without them.

Next up! My dearest brother.... Zhiwei... I guess he is really important in my life because he is one of the few that truly cares for me :) Im not joking! He is really like a brother and the one who will protect me HHEHEHE! I have said so many thanks that day but im really grateful to have a brother like him because he is one of a kind and the best of the best brother anyone can get :) Yes i mean it from my heart :) It is truly a blessing to be able to meet a friend like you and i hope that this friendship will last forever because you will always be the best brother one can have and i am glad to be the special one that meet you and become your mei <3 hehehehe 

Well, these peeps are pretty much the closest people i have known and i cant live without themmmmm.... I swear.... they are really people i need in my life... So guys dont ever leave me okay? :( I will be there when u guys need me because i know u guys will be there when i need you all ;)
Before i end.... I guess there is another special bunch of people who made my life more meaningful...

 These girls are the ones who make school more meaningful and filled with laughter because of who they are <3 I swear its a pleasure to be able to meet you girls in Bm1416 and we sure created many memories in this past year <3 I wish you girls all the best in your future classes and who knows.. we might be with one another again <3

 BIANLE!!!!! HAhahaaa! We really "Bianle" Although we werent as close compared to Sem2, Im glad to have one last clique photo with you girls ! Fate brought us together and we bonded really well with all the funny personalities of one another ! 
Elizabeth-the crazy old Bird
Germaine- My Lesbo partner <3 
Wendy-The second friend i met
Candis-THE SCARY ONE
Jocelyn-Blur queen 
June-"Club in the morning "
Grace- The super nice one

LETS NOT Forget.... My "Siblings" hahahaha~ The closest of the closest people i know.... I swear im gonna miss you girls so so so muchhhh :( We are always creating funny convos and stupid talks and jokes especially the past few days... Thankyou for always creating fond memories for me and i will definitely cherish them for the rest of my poly life... You 2 are the best that happened and im glad we got closer after so so so long hehehe~ Germaine you are my best lesbo partner and i hope that we will still be in contact okayyy :( and BIRDD~ U ARE THE "SAME BOAT" Lets work hard :P HEHEHEH
BM1416 OVER LOHHHHHH  Nahh~ we are not over... we are creating new memories with others but the memories of BM1416 will always be there~
Okay... Thats all folks~ Hope to blog again soonnnnn~
I am sure that the people i cherish most wont leave me horhhh ;) 
Special dedication to......

Happy sweet 16 my dear PSY~~ HAHAHHA~~~ I hope you see this okayy! Love you much much and i hope you and ...... *WINKWINK* will get together :P OKAY JOKINGGGGGG~~~
Loveyou and hope you enjoyed your awesome birthdayyyy~

Hold On Tight! Its going to be a ride full of EMOTIONS~~

So.... Hello people~ Another post to update myself and you guys what i have been through so far....
1. ICAs
2. Emotional
3. Sickness
4. Migraine is BACKKKK~
6. School -.-
So....ICA ( In-Class Assessments) have started now... and we are ending in about a week time~ I swear ICA is really a burden because all the projects and the need to communicate with people and shit starts happening... Thankful for having awesome friends to be in the project or some sort of awesome people....Honestly think that communication is still the key in all projects... I mean it isnt the first project i encounter and somehow, really hate it when communication is like.... broken.. //sigh// Thankgod! The last project for this semester is coming to an end this MONDAYYYYY!!!! SAY YESYESYES ! Im Left with Accounting For Assets and Effective Writing because HOLIDAAYYYSSS :D   Fat hope. This school has exams after school or during exams and even when we have no more papers, It means lessons till the given holiday date.... //sucks to be in poly eh?// But... I PLANNED MY 2 weeks well la! Guides camp, New Year's Party and many moreeee~~~
Okay... Thats really pretty much all about my exams.... Now... I'm not sure what is wiith me lately but i have been having emotional problem. I get really upset with so many things... Friends, relationship, family, school and whatever that can happen.. Weird right? I have been losing many friendships and the trust i have for many of them that i hoped they wouldnt leave me in surge and forgo the memories we had as friends.... Okay really emotional but its kinda sad how friendships turns cold and everyone become strangers again.... Till now, I dont feel like studing at all... Not even sure if i want to continue at this course... I always dread going to school because of the need to face so many things and problems..... I jus wanna stay out with Bae or even go back to my workplace.... I really love the feeling of working la... Lately, I feel so annoyed and stuff that i even feel annoyed with him.... fighting so much I feel its my fault... Sorry baby.... :/ Why is it so hard to get rid of all this emotions? Why isnt life going the way i want it to be? Nice friendship, relationship and having my family to support me and let me do what I really want to do with my life...
Lets Not forget.... I went back for Guides a long time ago for the Appreciation Lunch for non teaching staff and guess what!!! EHEHEHEHEHE MANAGED TO GET QH N NISA BACK ALSOOOO!! MUCH LOVES LAA <3

Hahahha~ Lets say... I have been sick for nobody knows how many months la... been coughing non stop and having sore throats, flu and phlegm every single time.... Dont really feel well and the moment my cough recover, I get infected with Viral Infection and my sis gave me the cough backk... Doesnt even feel good la... Hate falling sick but im so used to it now.. Lately, my tummy starts to hurt every now and then and they hurt so badly.... feel like stabbing myself at times... why do this to meee :( something more serious... MY MIGRAINE IS BACK FOR A VISIT!! I am sure that some of my SecSch mates probably know i used to be on panadol or painkiller because of the killing headache i always have in school last year like i have to constantly find people and get medicine... Then they started to control me because Painkiller was no longer effective and i decided to control the pain instead of letting it control me :) I SUCCEEDED!!! But... This time... it came back being worst and making me unable to even study... No idea why it is back but its so terrible i can cry any moment... #Suckstobeme!
Before i conclude... I just received a warning letter from my school saying that they may debar me for my attendance which doesnt makes sense... I HAD VALID REASONS PEOPLE!! I had to take Olevels and my viral infection caused me to be unable to come la!! HOW WAS IT MY FAULT THENNN :< But if you wanna debar me.. so be it!!!

OHHHHH~~~ I almost forgot! This Tues... MY OHANA REUNITED~~~ SO HAPPY LARHH~~~ Like it was so hard to reunite with them and what was best? They sent me to school, Have lunch with me and accompany me to study awhile... SO SWEET OF OHANA!!

I love you guysss ~~ <3
HEHEHEHEHE! This Shall conclude this post... Lets hope that the friend becomes a friend again, Ohana will meet again, Me and Bae will have better relationship and... GUIDES CAMP IS COMING UP AND I GET TO MEET MAL, QH AND NISAAAA <3
OKIEEE~~~
Thats All Folks!

Ups and Downs and all around....

Hey guys! I haven really been updating my blog for a really really long time so this time i shall sum up what i have been up to for the past months...
Hmmm... okay lets be frank. This year 2014 has passed way too quickly!!! I cant even catch up with the time :<<< Still hoping to live in the 2013's where everything was much better compared to what i have now.
sooo... AUGUST!! As i mentioned on my previous post, 27Aug is my  BIRTHDAYYY!!! 
Im blessed this year for having those really awesome people whom remembered my day and made this birthday really special!
Let me mention those really special people here!
RuiBin(mylove): Thank you for skipping lessons just to prepare for my birthday!! The cake that you stayed up late to bake, the stitch cookies ^~^, the balloon, the wallet and just everything else that you did to make this day special!!
Elizabeth, Korkor, Jocelyn, Terinanana, Tammy and Shiyunnnn: Thank you for staying up late just to send me those really heart warming birthday messages!! I'll remember them <3 hehehehehe! you guys are the besttt!
Candis for sending me a text the moment i woke up; Qianhong for trying to be the last to message me and many more of those who wished me <3. You guys are truly the best of the best okayyy!!! <3

Then comes September...
Well, I spent my Holidays trying to earn as much money as I can to survive in my daily life. I swear life is really difficult here. So guys who dont know me probably wont know how my life. How parents doesnt give you allowances to survive and how at times, those things what parents should help but they leave u in the pile of shit and you are expected to live on what you have. It isnt easy. On the eyes of many, this is seem as independence but its difficult and no matter how much you want to give up... You Can't. Imagine my normal salary ($200) having to survive for medical, school books, eating and my expenses... hard but they wont give a shit soooo.... work even harder during the holidays to earn even more to feed myself....
OK... Enough of all the boring life of mine.... This time, I got to work at Smiling Stars Childcare. It was the best place i ever worked at!! Not joking man! All the people there were really kind and even the children there were cute and cuddly !! HEHEHEHE! They make me so happy each time i go to work!
Opening the door to enter every morning and they would go" TEACHER HUILIN COME ALREADYYYY!!!" and they start hugging omgg :DD and those 1-3 year old kiddos would hug you and climb onto your leg asking you to carry them <3 super cute children and though i start school nd cant work now, I always want to go and visit them and they starts hugging me again <3

This Baobei of mine can say "I love you teacher huilin" Totally made me tear on my last day :')

Ohya so i visited them on friday and took pictures with them againnnn<3 

These children were the ones who makes my holiday so much brighter because of their laughter and their cuteness ! <3

Ohhhh~ Holidays are not fully meant for woork though!! I still had loads of fun with Bae during the public holidays and weekends~~~

We went to the beach, ADVENTURE COVE, for swims and sometimes we just go to starbucks to chill :)

Thank you my dearest baee! For bringing me to Adventure cove for the first time! It was truly a fun experience especially when you helped me overcome all the fear of tunnel slides and many more <3 you are the best of the best!
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October:
Started school this week... felt like I almost died in the first week but it was a really short week because I skipped the first day of school to go for my Olevels.... It was really hard to go through O levels again and this time round paper 1 was really toughhh :< Lets just hope that i can get a decent B grade this time and not waste my damn money pfft! Sem2 is  really tough i can tell just by the first week alreadyyy :( how to survive the rest of the semester uhhhh???
Ohhhh~ And Deepavali Holidayyy~~ I spent my time going to the sales with Bae!! Met almost his entire family... I swear it was so awkward i hide almost everytime i see them because i didnt know that i would meet so much of his family people and especially bin mummy >< hehehehehe~~ Lets hope that i get over the fear and shyness of meeting people hur >< SO SHYYYY!

Anyways, the week ended really nicely! Eugene and Korkor went back to panjang with me !hurhurhrur ^~^ Time wiith them was really awesome because every time i take the train with korkor he will come up with crap to make me laugh :DD expect for the other part where he will also try his best to bully me and embarrass me :< hahahahaha! noisy people on the trainnn *ALERT ALERT* I swear they were nuisance but these nuisance made life so much better ~~~~ HEHEHHEE! And someone even turned into a gentleman and helped me carry my books *AWWWHHH* THANKYOU MY DEAR KORKOR!! ^~^ awaiting for more trips back to Panjang together!!\
OKAYY! THAT SHALL BE ALL FOLKS! TILL THE NEXT POST <3