Hold On Tight! Its going to be a ride full of EMOTIONS~~

So.... Hello people~ Another post to update myself and you guys what i have been through so far....
1. ICAs
2. Emotional
3. Sickness
4. Migraine is BACKKKK~
6. School -.-
So....ICA ( In-Class Assessments) have started now... and we are ending in about a week time~ I swear ICA is really a burden because all the projects and the need to communicate with people and shit starts happening... Thankful for having awesome friends to be in the project or some sort of awesome people....Honestly think that communication is still the key in all projects... I mean it isnt the first project i encounter and somehow, really hate it when communication is like.... broken.. //sigh// Thankgod! The last project for this semester is coming to an end this MONDAYYYYY!!!! SAY YESYESYES ! Im Left with Accounting For Assets and Effective Writing because HOLIDAAYYYSSS :D   Fat hope. This school has exams after school or during exams and even when we have no more papers, It means lessons till the given holiday date.... //sucks to be in poly eh?// But... I PLANNED MY 2 weeks well la! Guides camp, New Year's Party and many moreeee~~~
Okay... Thats really pretty much all about my exams.... Now... I'm not sure what is wiith me lately but i have been having emotional problem. I get really upset with so many things... Friends, relationship, family, school and whatever that can happen.. Weird right? I have been losing many friendships and the trust i have for many of them that i hoped they wouldnt leave me in surge and forgo the memories we had as friends.... Okay really emotional but its kinda sad how friendships turns cold and everyone become strangers again.... Till now, I dont feel like studing at all... Not even sure if i want to continue at this course... I always dread going to school because of the need to face so many things and problems..... I jus wanna stay out with Bae or even go back to my workplace.... I really love the feeling of working la... Lately, I feel so annoyed and stuff that i even feel annoyed with him.... fighting so much I feel its my fault... Sorry baby.... :/ Why is it so hard to get rid of all this emotions? Why isnt life going the way i want it to be? Nice friendship, relationship and having my family to support me and let me do what I really want to do with my life...
Lets Not forget.... I went back for Guides a long time ago for the Appreciation Lunch for non teaching staff and guess what!!! EHEHEHEHEHE MANAGED TO GET QH N NISA BACK ALSOOOO!! MUCH LOVES LAA <3

Hahahha~ Lets say... I have been sick for nobody knows how many months la... been coughing non stop and having sore throats, flu and phlegm every single time.... Dont really feel well and the moment my cough recover, I get infected with Viral Infection and my sis gave me the cough backk... Doesnt even feel good la... Hate falling sick but im so used to it now.. Lately, my tummy starts to hurt every now and then and they hurt so badly.... feel like stabbing myself at times... why do this to meee :( something more serious... MY MIGRAINE IS BACK FOR A VISIT!! I am sure that some of my SecSch mates probably know i used to be on panadol or painkiller because of the killing headache i always have in school last year like i have to constantly find people and get medicine... Then they started to control me because Painkiller was no longer effective and i decided to control the pain instead of letting it control me :) I SUCCEEDED!!! But... This time... it came back being worst and making me unable to even study... No idea why it is back but its so terrible i can cry any moment... #Suckstobeme!
Before i conclude... I just received a warning letter from my school saying that they may debar me for my attendance which doesnt makes sense... I HAD VALID REASONS PEOPLE!! I had to take Olevels and my viral infection caused me to be unable to come la!! HOW WAS IT MY FAULT THENNN :< But if you wanna debar me.. so be it!!!

OHHHHH~~~ I almost forgot! This Tues... MY OHANA REUNITED~~~ SO HAPPY LARHH~~~ Like it was so hard to reunite with them and what was best? They sent me to school, Have lunch with me and accompany me to study awhile... SO SWEET OF OHANA!!

I love you guysss ~~ <3
HEHEHEHEHE! This Shall conclude this post... Lets hope that the friend becomes a friend again, Ohana will meet again, Me and Bae will have better relationship and... GUIDES CAMP IS COMING UP AND I GET TO MEET MAL, QH AND NISAAAA <3
OKIEEE~~~
Thats All Folks!

Ups and Downs and all around....

Hey guys! I haven really been updating my blog for a really really long time so this time i shall sum up what i have been up to for the past months...
Hmmm... okay lets be frank. This year 2014 has passed way too quickly!!! I cant even catch up with the time :<<< Still hoping to live in the 2013's where everything was much better compared to what i have now.
sooo... AUGUST!! As i mentioned on my previous post, 27Aug is my  BIRTHDAYYY!!! 
Im blessed this year for having those really awesome people whom remembered my day and made this birthday really special!
Let me mention those really special people here!
RuiBin(mylove): Thank you for skipping lessons just to prepare for my birthday!! The cake that you stayed up late to bake, the stitch cookies ^~^, the balloon, the wallet and just everything else that you did to make this day special!!
Elizabeth, Korkor, Jocelyn, Terinanana, Tammy and Shiyunnnn: Thank you for staying up late just to send me those really heart warming birthday messages!! I'll remember them <3 hehehehehe! you guys are the besttt!
Candis for sending me a text the moment i woke up; Qianhong for trying to be the last to message me and many more of those who wished me <3. You guys are truly the best of the best okayyy!!! <3

Then comes September...
Well, I spent my Holidays trying to earn as much money as I can to survive in my daily life. I swear life is really difficult here. So guys who dont know me probably wont know how my life. How parents doesnt give you allowances to survive and how at times, those things what parents should help but they leave u in the pile of shit and you are expected to live on what you have. It isnt easy. On the eyes of many, this is seem as independence but its difficult and no matter how much you want to give up... You Can't. Imagine my normal salary ($200) having to survive for medical, school books, eating and my expenses... hard but they wont give a shit soooo.... work even harder during the holidays to earn even more to feed myself....
OK... Enough of all the boring life of mine.... This time, I got to work at Smiling Stars Childcare. It was the best place i ever worked at!! Not joking man! All the people there were really kind and even the children there were cute and cuddly !! HEHEHEHE! They make me so happy each time i go to work!
Opening the door to enter every morning and they would go" TEACHER HUILIN COME ALREADYYYY!!!" and they start hugging omgg :DD and those 1-3 year old kiddos would hug you and climb onto your leg asking you to carry them <3 super cute children and though i start school nd cant work now, I always want to go and visit them and they starts hugging me again <3

This Baobei of mine can say "I love you teacher huilin" Totally made me tear on my last day :')

Ohya so i visited them on friday and took pictures with them againnnn<3 

These children were the ones who makes my holiday so much brighter because of their laughter and their cuteness ! <3

Ohhhh~ Holidays are not fully meant for woork though!! I still had loads of fun with Bae during the public holidays and weekends~~~

We went to the beach, ADVENTURE COVE, for swims and sometimes we just go to starbucks to chill :)

Thank you my dearest baee! For bringing me to Adventure cove for the first time! It was truly a fun experience especially when you helped me overcome all the fear of tunnel slides and many more <3 you are the best of the best!
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October:
Started school this week... felt like I almost died in the first week but it was a really short week because I skipped the first day of school to go for my Olevels.... It was really hard to go through O levels again and this time round paper 1 was really toughhh :< Lets just hope that i can get a decent B grade this time and not waste my damn money pfft! Sem2 is  really tough i can tell just by the first week alreadyyy :( how to survive the rest of the semester uhhhh???
Ohhhh~ And Deepavali Holidayyy~~ I spent my time going to the sales with Bae!! Met almost his entire family... I swear it was so awkward i hide almost everytime i see them because i didnt know that i would meet so much of his family people and especially bin mummy >< hehehehehe~~ Lets hope that i get over the fear and shyness of meeting people hur >< SO SHYYYY!

Anyways, the week ended really nicely! Eugene and Korkor went back to panjang with me !hurhurhrur ^~^ Time wiith them was really awesome because every time i take the train with korkor he will come up with crap to make me laugh :DD expect for the other part where he will also try his best to bully me and embarrass me :< hahahahaha! noisy people on the trainnn *ALERT ALERT* I swear they were nuisance but these nuisance made life so much better ~~~~ HEHEHHEE! And someone even turned into a gentleman and helped me carry my books *AWWWHHH* THANKYOU MY DEAR KORKOR!! ^~^ awaiting for more trips back to Panjang together!!\
OKAYY! THAT SHALL BE ALL FOLKS! TILL THE NEXT POST <3

Sums my 2 weeks

Hey guys~~ So this another update after ermmm 2 weeks? Sooooo... What has happened for the past 2 weeks? School's OUTTTTT! Just joking... In a way Poly's Semester 1 has come to an end but currently i am facing with really bad stress also known as: EXAMMMM STRESSS~ If you guys know me well enough, you should know i didn't face much study anxiety wheni was in Secondary school taking my national exams but this time round is different. I am totally facing the stress when it is only 3 modules( This is probably cos its tough I have to retake the module if i fail)
But maybe because i dont have the passion for this course hence I'm not really motivated to study at all.....
OK! Back to what i was doing for the past 2 weeks:
I went for really awesome guides session again! Because well, NDP has ended right.... so its time to slack slack and play lah horh? :)

I think one of the really fun games that my guides can go crazy is this: Captain's Ball! So it went like this- I was invited (sort of) to join my dearest patrol to play captain's ball with them as a team *AWWHHHH* And just as i erm hold the ball.... PEOPLE COMES TO TACKLE AND ATTACK MEEE OMGGG! (People like serlyn and other crazy ass girls) And best yet.... I faced 4 people fighting with me and my dear junior was like watching me die in the war :( THEY ARE SO MEANNNNN JOKING~ They are still my cute beloved juniors~~~
On to the second week!!
Holiday;study break... whatever you call it.... I spent it as a holiday though.... And as a holiday you should EATEATEAT!
So I ate ermmm... Seoul Garden, Japanese Food and Din Tai Fung as my 3 very delightful meals of the week XD Don't be jealous people..yuguys can always jio me and treat me to a meal(My kor kor owes me 2 meals le loh... the rest of you can treat me if you all want Heeeheeee)

Okayyy.....I did studied a bit bahhh... because Tamz would probably scold me and also because she taught me econs on friday so i studied la! HAHAHAHA Other than that I would have probably went out everyday and play hehehehehe... So... this is my tutor... the one and only Tammy

And yes...she was enjoying her McWings...(Tammy if youever seethiis photo please do not kill me :P) It was fun being out on a study date with her because we haven sat and talk for a really long time and also it was so joyful to be with her!! :) I swear i miss Secondary School days where me and Tamz can sit together during mother tongue class and people go (Huilin(me) and Huilin(tamz's chinese name) And she is the one who always has to answer questions :D HAHAHAH!! Fun times isnt it?? :)
And we went to wsss for our CCAs againnn~~ HEHEHE Apparently it was PT and cheers so....

HEHEHHE! I hope you guys have enjoyed the video of my cute guides <3
Ohhhhh~~ And yes, a little thank you to the guy of my life that bought me presents and loving me:)
You know what i will say in my heart ok! <3 Thank you for the cute cover and stitch sticker for my phone too!! Im so happy with it now now now~~~

And yes.... before i end this post.... I would like to wish all the Poly peeps All the best for their Examm!! Hehehehe!  i know it is tough but we can conquer it right? :) And for my JC friends! Study hard okay! Promos are coming! You guys can do it! Dont give up too easily :)

"Study hard, Study smart!"  Because we can conquer everything in life if we bother to try!
Some of us may be facing the hardest time in their life. the highest and most steep mountain in their life. But if they are tough, they will be able to see the beautiful scenery at the top!
Never give up okay guys? We can all do it :D
[ Side note: 2 more days to my 17th birthday]
[ Countdown: 4 days to end of exams]

Little Update on my lifey~

HEY GUYS :) Guess what! Poly 1st Semester is ending!! Im really anticipating the end of theis semester because school is so so so dreadful! :( I always have the "sian la dot wanna leave house" feeling when i have to get to school everyday and not to mention... some really unpleasant shit happening in school~ If only school isnt compulsory and life can still be great... ( So no possible)
Anyways, many things have happened over the period of time! ( USS, MARINA BARRAGE, WSSSNDP, AND NDP) So many events, such happening months for me <3 !Also, I gt this really awesome friend of mine (Zhiwei KORKOR) that loves to joke and bully me eh :(
Anyways, life still goes on, exam, test, projects and many things on in school toooo :// Sighpie!
Not forgetting the guides really made me proud of them this time for putting in their effort in the parade <3

All the beautiful girls in my life ~~
Continuing, I celebrated a really great NDP this year with great company comes greater times isnt it? Going out with these people always makes me happier and cheerful! Secondary school friends are ultimately the best because no matter what happens, they are there for you... Im not joking! They are probably the only people i can count on in life!!

Being in the Uniform Groups is really a choice i didnt regret in my life~ I met so many wonderful people everywhere! NPCC and NCC mates forever the best people to clique with and chit chat every time :) This makes fridays a whole lot better when u have UG seniors with you :) HEHEHHE~ What is life if i didnt join guides eh ?
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Hmmm>..< The holidays are coming again!!! :D So lets throwback to the last holiday i had!

Had a really nice picnic with the girls the other time~ Our first outing together and awaiting for more to come soon~
That shall end my blog for tonight~

This shall be the first part of blogging today! Im really bored now and im waiting for time to pass to meet the awesome peeps for steamboat!!! HUAT AHHH! I love steamboat especially when i can have it with awesome friends like them! I feel great having patched up with them :') OHHH! I was really bored that i made a chocolate cake out of pure fun ^~^ SUCCESS I GUESS! Its really moist and melts in my mouth ! Hope the pig likes it :D I AM FINDING JOBS >< THIS IS SO HARD AND TEDIOUS MANNNN!!! I cant seem to find jobs that i want and i wanna find a job! HAHAHAA!!!
Lets hope that the job accept me then, my dreams are fulfilled heheheheh~
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Sometimes, Blogging is not all about the happiness of life but the terrible times i have too. Honestly, i have been thinking. Is it because when one gains something, they have to lose another? Why cant life be simple and everything be perfect? Is it so had to keep the friendship or it is meant to be this way? Well, if it is.... Dont tell me that i haven tried hard enough to keep this up because when i do try, You people ignore my messages and not even give me a reply. Maybe i would accept the statement:"I didnt see the message""I forget to press send""I overlook them" but time and again, i tried and no reply from you guys... Does this means im not trying hard enough or am i deliberately being ignored. Im really puzzled yet i dont want to jump into conclusions.... damn... can u just tell me straight in the face if you want to ignore me or something? instead of doing this to me time and again?

CNY2014

So people, I spent 4 days doing house visiting because I can! I wonder how was everyone doing during the cny break! Students be like "I DON'T WANNA GO TO SCHHHH" AND I'M.LIKE" WHAT IS SCHOOL ;)" MUHAHAHAHAHA! Anyways I have been eating a lot this few days XS snacks that are stuffed into me and even, good seafood.... Worth? Time to get back to my mission soon! This year cny seems really different seems really tiring and long but then again, it's the same few places which we usually finish in 2 days but this year we took 4 >< BUT..... WE STILL HAD LOADS OF FUNFUNFUNNNNNNN ^~^ I love cny bcos of the people we get to meet and the angpaos :* MUAHAHAHA! THIS YEAR CNY was on the end and start of Feb and also, the second day of it happens to be a really special day for me :)
Anywaysss! Tmrw I'm.heading to Daniel's house with da peeps for steamboat! :D can't wait to have the meal with them! :)
This shall thn be a short post becos I'm using my.phone! muhahahahq! Nights people! Till the next.;-)

REUNIONNNNNNN~

Hello everyone~ Sorry for the late post again..... (If there is even anyone reading my blog)
Hmmmmm.... Chinese New Year is approaching and families are having reunion dinner :D Well, This Reunion is different.... I finally patched with my pengyous and we had a really had a great time :D Honestly, i was really afraid things were going to be awkward because we didnt really end things well enough.... but then.... We were like crazy people at marina And Bugis !:D CRAZY PEOPLE X1000 None of us managed to fly a kite up but then again, we had our little picnic and we were at the centre of the barrage XD ( CENTRE OF ATTRACTION? I THINK NOT!) Though i didnt managed to take any group shots with them, we still had a really pleasant time around the place! (My mummy even did something really shocking) HEHEHEHEHE!!!! WE HAD ASTONS ON THAT DAY TOOOOOOO! OMG THE FOOD WAS REALLY SUPERB AND AND AND WORTH THE MONEY !!!! Though the pig only managed to come at night for dinner and shopping, we had a really great day isnt it? 
Really Hoping that we can have another fun outing as a full clique :D HEHEHEHEHE Maybe the day will come soon :>
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Well, I took 3 days to shop for my new year clothes... Though they arent really formal or nice... i took a really long time choosing the clothes and i was really indecisive to the extent that i had to walk lots of time just to choose! Luckily, I had someone with me :D HEHEHEE!! Though i didnt managed to by much t=stuff on the first 2 days, he continued to shop with me and go around with me (trust me shopping for clothes isnt fun or easy at all) I hate clothes shopping... But at times, it can go so crazy! Especially when i managed to find clothes on really great sales and shopped till i drop :DDD MUAHAHAAHA!! My clothes colour doesnt match but its colour blocking and my sis say it looks okie! Come on! I shall put through a ew crazy fashion HAHAHAHAHAA!!! Im really excited for CNY! Though i cannot have the same CNY as last year, im sure this year will be equally great isnt it? :D
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Well, This is my my third post and im wondering how many and who actually reads my pathetic blog.... Honestly this blog is about my life and it doesnt matter on how people view it but more on what i feel about my life. Ever wonder how my future will be like... will it really be like the future i dream for it to be? Or..... nahhhh~ Shall think about it because the future is in our hamds and we create our own future. If we are able to control and do it well, We will have what we want isnt it? :D My future is to be with the guy i love, live in comfort and have dogs and childrens :D Live peacefully and loving one another :D Im sure it will come true :D because i found what i want :) Aim for our future together and we shall create the best of our life...
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I shall blog again soon i guess :D HEHEEHHEEE! ~ till the next people :D